When It Rains Look for Rainbows

The first week of school just ended and I found myself on Friday exhausted from it. It was just another first week of school from many more to come. The week was pretty uneventful in the big scheme of things - some small tantrums to deal with and some pretty big tantrums that seemed to go on forever, bedtimes being tested, and homework lazily completed. That pretty much did it for me. But one thing I realized at the end of the week was just how much I try to suppress any sadness or feelings of discomfort. Instead, I try to cheer myself up and remind myself that everything is just swell. The glass is half full. Always, right?While I prefer that type of optimism, I know from past experience that suppressing any feelings of discomfort does pretty much nothing other than delay the act of feeling sad or angry. So as the week was ending, I was sad, angry, overwhelmed, and add exhausted to that list too. I found myself missing my friendships from North Carolina, sad to have left our previous home, overwhelmed about a new school year, and just pretty much burnt out from all the changes we have dealt over the summer.If you read this post, every summer has a story, I shared the good. The parts of my life that feel like the glass is half full. But one thing I didn't share was how this summer tested me as a parent and tested our marriage. Every big and life-changing event does that to me. And normally, all the effects of the changes affect me way later. When I'm in the midst of the changes, I go into survival mode - I check off my to-do lists and just do what I need to do to get through it.I really solve nothing by sharing these words. Other than it being my way of venting and just letting you know I'm human.This new week brings hope that things will go smoother and better. Happy Monday my friends!image